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Tuesday, December 28, 2010
“I happen to believe the world will change only when we change ourselves. And that starts with finding ourselves. And that starts with listening to ourselves: learning to quiet the clamor in our minds and the voices of everyone around us and move toward what feels right- towards the things we know, for reasons we can’t explain, that we’re meant to do, the things that make us feel alive.”
Saturday, December 25, 2010
This christmas season was a months of firsts. My first ever christmas away from home, first danish christmas, first real christmas tree, first celebration on the 24th and first WHITE christmas!
In denmark they celebrate christmas on the 24th evening. We spent the whole day visiting people eating coffee and cake. I came home for a short nap, and then started the christmas festivities!
We stayed at home and had most of the family there. Ate traditional dansk food. Such as meat (duck, pork) and potatoes and for dessert ris a'lamande (however you spell it)- basically a rice and almond pudding. We then sang dansk christmas songs and danced around the tree. After we sat down and exchanged presents.
I had such a lovely night, it was a very different, but beautiful christmas. I had a skype with my family (xmas morning there 25th) but after that I went on to play danish pictionary with my host siblings.
I had a brief moment of missing home but it passed, I'm surrounded with so many lovely people- I'm just loving every mo
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
.. so tonight I went round to Per and Mariannes (my counsellor and his wife) and I had a hygge night with them. We ate dinner, I helped Marianne decorate the christmas tree and after we did the danish thing with tea and desserts. I also popped around to my 3rd family (who live next door) to give them their christmas pressies and wish them a merry christmas.
But anyway, I'll get on with my point. I had a lovely night tonight and it was tonight when it hit me how lucky I've been this year. Per asked me what the rotary club should do to make it better, or if there is anything they should change etc. and I realised that there wasn't anything I was unhappy with (maybe the danish language lessons- but that wasn't their fault). and I know it sounds totally un-cool to be saying this, because some people just think I'm being a suck up. But I'm honestly so thankful everything Rotary (Korosoer Nor Club) has done for me this year. I have a great counsellor- whom I have a good relationship with, I have had 4 great families, the club has been so generous towards me (money wise!), they've let me travel, they dont check up on my school BUT most of all they've let me experience. They've let me be a teenager, they've trusted me and they've let me live my year.
So, I'm thankful to my club- to the people that have organised my exchange, because without them I would not of had this year.
and its as simple as that.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
So here we go again, another one of my moments. like the moment/realizations of what I'm actually doing this year. This realization wasn't so good, but much needed all the same. Lately- with the impending issue of going home, I've needed a bit of a kick in the butt to wake up and realize that this bubble I've been living in for the past 324 days or 46 weeks will be popped in about a month and I'll be back home to Australia- things have changed, that I wont be picking up where I left off and this life here cant continue on into my 'old' one.
So, just a few days ago I was in Lidl with Stace and Kat trying to find something for lunch. We were standing over the frozen food section (looking for something to use in the schools microwave) and I was looking at all the foods and I said to Stace- ' this reminds me of summer here, being hungover digging through your freezer for food'. and I know it sounds like a silly memory, but that just clicked everything I felt that summer, everything I felt in that moment. So just like that I got it. That was then. Just a few months ago, but long enough ago for it to feel like another life time. And a little part of me ached knowing that I cant go back to that. That, the part of my exchange that felt like forever is over.
I want to stay in these moments forever.... the moments where I have found my true friends, found happiness in strange moments, found understanding, found peace and sense of self.
And I know, I know, I'm an exchange student, I've kinda had to get used to change.. the whole process ( I mean every 3 months my life got up rooted and I'd start again).. but this change I'm not ready for... This change is unwelcome. I'm happy, in my zone, I'm not ready to ache again.
So I get it, its time to go home.. to say goodbye and to start a new phase of my life. I accept that now... but I just...I just miss those times and I will spend forever missing those times.
(so sorry if this all scrambled and doesn't make sense. my writing/english has gone out the window this year)
“Because that’s what life is about. It’s about the time when you lay in the grass next to those you love. It’s about the color of the sky. It’s about a roaring fire on a winters evening. You’ve got to realize that everybody bleeds, and that everybody hurts. Everybody laughs, and everybody smiles. That’s what it’s all about. That’s all it is. There is no set meaning of life, there is nothing that can be defined, or written. It’s a matter of sculpting your very own definition.”
Monday, December 6, 2010
soooo... I guess its time I put in a little update.
So about a week ago I was staying with my lovely cousins in Ireland.
I have not seen Cathy and Ciaran since I was about 7 I think- we worked this out after they told me a story of how me and my sister spontaneously graced them with one of our dance shows and I figured this must of been in my dancing days.
So anywho, Ireland... I was supposed to get into Dublin at 6pm but when I got to CPH airport my direct flight was cancelled- because of the weather AND because they couldnt staff the flight!!... so they got me onto a flight to frankfurt and said with any luck I could get a connecting dublin from there but they didnt know what the weather was like in frankfurt so they didnt know what would happen with my flight. I went anyway, plane was supposed to board at 4pm didnt board til 5pm, sat on the plane til 7pm and finally got to frankfurt around 9. luckily my flight to dublin wasnt cancelled but we didnt board til 11pm and then sat on the plane for a furthur 2 hours waiting for the de-ice machine to show up. arrived in dublin ar 1.30am 7 and a half hours late.
so by the time I got back to cathy and ciarans it was about 3 am, and we just wanted to sleep. understandably.
the next day there was so much snow. Ireland doesnt normally have snow, so they dont know what to do about it. the whole place just shuts down. So we spent the morning making a snowman (who coinicidently turned out to look like dad) and played around in the snow. we went and got lunch and I saw a little bit of where they live.
Sunday was spent in another town not too far from where they live. we took the train and had the most gorgeous scenic route along the coast.
on the Monday we braved the snow and went into Dublin. we took a hop on, hop off city tour bus and it was the perfect way to see Dublin. it wasnt much of a day for walking do it was nice to just sit and see. we got off at the guiness factory. that was super fun and I recommend it for anyone who goes to Dublin. at the very top of the factory is this room called the 'gravity lounge' or something and it has this amazing view over Dublin. the light of the sky was a perfect blue and the there was snow on all the roof tops and it was just gorgeous!!
and my last day, Tuesday. we had to be up early and fingers crossed I could get my plane back to cph with no worries. I had a three hour stopover in zurich and it was all fine with no worries thank goodness.
I had such a great time in Ireland. It was so hard to get out and do things because of the weather but that didnt phase me. I was there to see my beautiful cousins and my gorgeous 7 month old 2nd cousin! I miss them already, and hopefully in a few years I'll see them again. Like my other cousin said, I'll be back.
being in Ireland also made me realise how much my english has gone down hill this year. I had five days of guilt free english and I realised just how much I suck at speaking it. odd, because its not like I can speak danish either!
also, lately, I've been busy doing x-massy things. Theres been so much snow in Dk, looks like I'll get my white xmas after all. I just had my JuleFrokost- which is like a big party for 3rd years and then a school party afterwards, it was a fun night and I had the best of both worlds dancing with my exchangies and danish friends.
I checked another thing off my wishlist. Tivoli at Xmas. I had an amazing day with my host family and their kids. We took the train a little earlier to go ice skating but it was closed.
Tivoli is beautiful at xmas. The snow and the fairy light. its like a little wonderland!!
My feet were so frozen after the day though. No wonder I'm really sick now.
And just tonight I mad mini pavs for my host family. The pavs worked and my hosties want me to make them again! success!! :)
under 6 weeks in this beautiful, cold, snow covered land. I cant believe it.... I dont think I can go home.